Sickie nuggles

I took a wicked spinning class last night. My first, ever. It was fun, and invigorating (if an hour of standing while sprinting while gasping for air can be called invigorating.) But it was totally the wrong thing to have done yesterday in particular because I felt kind of off and didn’t listen to myself [...]

Seeking

Trying to find beauty tonight, and striving to ask the right questions of the universe, but feeling shaky about it all. Trying to put the right words out there, the right prayers, the right hopes, so that joy floods into my life and makes me full. Some days this is easier to do than others. [...]

Finding the beat

Last week I was like a satellite thrown out of orbit, twirling in crazy loops from all the scrambled sleep, and the on-edge waiting. I let myself slip haphazardly out of my routine of writing mornings, first thing while the house is still sighing in its sleep. I’d hear the alarm, and peer at it [...]

Saturday list

* Croissants, fresh strawberries, vanilla yogurt, lattes. * A trip to the store for rain boots. * Grocery shopping (“Bean drive OWN CAR,” he says, earnestly. And so we push around those awful, cumbersome, rediculous plastic car/carts. He loves every minute.) * Teething, and a struggle to go to sleep at nap time. Finally we [...]

More up down

So I’m going with the co-sleeping-ish arrangement for now. Which is what we’ve been doing, and it works fine except for when he’s ansy and can’t lie still and insists on holding my cheek pressed against his cheek, and howling “Mama TURN OVER” when I roll the other way. But. So. Well. We’ll keep trying [...]