Milestone
Posted on | September 8, 2008 | 8 Comments
DH and I went to our first ever parent night tonight. Our Bean is suddenly a big kid, a school goer with teachers and routines. I couldn’t help the feeling in my chest: like a hundred silver minnows all darting at once this way and then that. I couldn’t help feeling shy and overwhelmed, and at my side, DH equally shy and overwhelmed. It seems so official, going to parent night. And also, the end of something.
The end of moments where his orbit is only family; the arc of his moods, willy-nilly with glee or tumbling with gloomy sorrow at some slight wrong, only ours to witness.
Now he’s out there in the world, navigating friendships and expectations and the contents of his school lunch box. And it makes breath catch in my throat.
He has the sweetest teacher imaginable (who, by the way, volunteered to email me every single day to let me know how his day went–because I can never come to pick up to read the daily journal. How awesome is that?) And on his school days he wakes up early and full of smiles like bright slices of oranges.
Still.
And also, I think I’m feeling flutters of the baby kicking–but not regular flutters—and I am wondering when it’s normal to start feeling regular movement? I can’t remember what I felt last time–in fact the only thing I remember about my last pregnancy was my gag reflex in response to the smell of catfood; my hatred of maternity clothing, and very little else.
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September 8th, 2008 @ 10:39 pm
They grow so quickly. I went from being Sharon to being “Graham’s Mom” and “Lauren’s Mom.” Now with kids in 2nd grade and kindergarten, their own orbits are established. They spin apart from me yet, graciously, still intersect with me. I’ve come to love the early mornings and dusky evenings where we are together again.
September 8th, 2008 @ 11:21 pm
Ok, this made me sad and wistful, and my babe is only 7 months old. It goes so fast, it goes SO fast. You write so beautifully.
I think I felt some flutters at 16 weeks…like a goldfish tail tickling my belly button.
September 9th, 2008 @ 1:36 am
It goes SO very very fast! Grab every moment and hold it tight before it zooms on again.
September 9th, 2008 @ 6:23 am
Flutters started at 16 or 17 weeks for me too. But they didn’t become consistently easy to recognize until week 20 or 21.
All the best to Bean in his first weeks of school! And to you too. Definitely a moment to remember.
September 9th, 2008 @ 2:55 pm
flutters tend to vary from person to person and pg to pg (depending on where the placenta and position of baby is) … all i can say is if you think you’re feeling them, you are
lovely post that touches the heart.
September 9th, 2008 @ 4:38 pm
I check your blog from time to time because you catch so well the feelings of women and moms everywhere. Keep it coming!!!
Regarding the flutters: you feel them earlier with the second pregnancy because you are capable of identifying them right away. The earliest for me was at 18-19 weeks with my third one.
September 10th, 2008 @ 8:56 am
i bet you have a journal entry somewhere about your last pregnancy! maybe here?!
i know it’s so HARD to let go when they start school isn’t it?! it’s still hard for me and mine are 2nd and 3rd grade. it’s extremely hard! i email the teacher at least once a week and she has even called me on the phone. it doesn’t get any easier in my opinion!
tara
September 10th, 2008 @ 3:56 pm
I felt flutters the first time at 18-19 weeks. The second time around, I felt the flutters for sure at 15 weeks and squirmy moving at 19 weeks. Everyone told me it was too early at 15 weeks but I was pretty tuned in.