Here & now
Posted on | November 11, 2009 | 15 Comments
A week of friends, and bonfires and playing in the leaves. A week of making choices and getting on top of the laundry situation and soaking up back to back days of slanting shadows and mellow sunlight.
Now: Penguin Café on my headphones. Writing a novel makes everything twirl in my head.
Life is full, and there is a feeling of tenderness just below the surface. It’s hunting season. We put the light on in the coop to trick the sleepy hens to lay some eggs. In the dark we fold into each other and whisper, reconciling the smallness of today with the possibility that tomorrow will be great.
We’re all hugging ourselves in the dark; hugging each other; hungry for something. Or at least I am, he is. Lots happening in the present tense right now, but I miss being here.
What matters to you today?
Comments
15 Responses to “Here & now”
Leave a Reply
My Book:
ELSEWHERE:
33 before 33
CATEGORIES
Archives
- September 2010
- August 2010
- July 2010
- June 2010
- May 2010
- April 2010
- March 2010
- February 2010
- January 2010
- December 2009
- November 2009
- October 2009
- September 2009
- August 2009
- July 2009
- June 2009
- May 2009
- April 2009
- March 2009
- February 2009
- January 2009
- December 2008
- November 2008
- October 2008
- September 2008
- August 2008
- July 2008
- June 2008
- May 2008
- April 2008
- March 2008
- February 2008
- January 2008
- December 2007
- November 2007
- October 2007
- September 2007
- August 2007
- July 2007
- June 2007
- May 2007
- April 2007
- March 2007
- February 2007
- January 2007
- December 2006
- November 2006
- October 2006
- September 2006
- August 2006
- July 2006
- June 2006
- May 2006
- April 2006
- March 2006
- February 2006
- January 2006
- December 2005
- November 2005
- October 2005
- September 2005
- August 2005
- July 2005
- June 2005
November 11th, 2009 @ 9:38 am
Hmm, those words have hit me: reconciling the smallness of today with the possibility that tomorrow will be great.
I seem to have an awful lot of small days. I think I need to put more effort into making tomorrow great myself.
November 11th, 2009 @ 12:57 pm
It is great to hear from you…I hope your novel is taking off and going well! What matters to me? I have a self-imposed deadline that I am not sure I am going to make and that gives today and tomorrow some urgency. I don’t know how I am going to pull it off because kids are out of school today through the rest of the week.
But, what matters right now is how beautiful the sunrise is outside of my window. Vibrant, pink, purple. Like walking into a watercolor. The trees, bare and black in the foreground. It makes it a great start to the day.
Maybe I will find a way…
November 11th, 2009 @ 2:08 pm
lovely to hear from you.
On this cold November day, the ground & houses are covered with a layer of frost, winter on it’s way and with that always comes the feeling of contentment in my life.
My husband is looking for a new job, we will be moving soon but as long as we are together, we are okay.
take care! update pictures sooN!
tara
November 11th, 2009 @ 3:24 pm
Even in this simple post, I can feel the crispness of each word you write. You have a rhythm and a way of seeing the world that is so fresh. Thanks, always, for the inspiration.
What matters to me today? column deadline tomorrow; need to figure out how to inject action into my NaNoWriMo novel (my 1st attempt at real fiction.)
November 11th, 2009 @ 3:35 pm
It is good to hear from you. It is a good reminder to ask about today…even if it is small. That could mean precious. Today…is the first week of my thirteenth year of marriage. He seems to be making a genuine effort…to be part of a married couple. I am accepting that. That is important to me. In the very early hours of the morning I experienced that overwhelming swell of consuming love for my children. That often happens when I observe them growing, changing in leaps. My oldest son is becoming a boy–developing his own thoughts in his own world. I hear him whispering to himself his thoughts…about dinosaurs. I laid with him last night. He was crying because the dinosaurs are extinct. He figured out that meant dead. We talked about animals that remind us of dinosaurs–rhinos, giraffes, gators & crocs, warthogs. He fell asleep thinking about today’s dinosaurs. My youngest has figured out language. Every minute it seems it’s the ability to pronounce a new word, or to give a pretty darned good try. Rainbow, raisins, choo-choo, rhino were this morning. It’s important for me to love them today. It’s important for me to remember that every day. It’s still warm here, very humid but breezy. It’s important for me to be outside a lot this season to be able to enjoy feeling comfortable outside. And it’s important for me to continue working on my list to regain control and order. Bit by bit, one tiny step at a time. Small steps, small things. I hope you have a great day (big smile).
November 11th, 2009 @ 3:39 pm
What matters today?
Finding happiness in small things. It’s that simple (and that difficult) for me.
November 11th, 2009 @ 4:31 pm
Trying to instill a sense of responsibility in my oldest. Not slacking on the power-walking every day this week despite the urge to NAP instead. The great book I am in the middle of. THe news that my mom is coming to visit.
November 11th, 2009 @ 6:12 pm
Today for me is about communication, facing fears about the past circling it’s way back to smack me in the face, again, and not letting those fears derail me. Today is about talking, and breathing, and not over-reacting. Today is just about being ok with today. Letting the big picture take care of itself.
November 11th, 2009 @ 11:05 pm
I must say you look great. Way sexy!
You should be on a harley instead of in a car.
November 11th, 2009 @ 11:06 pm
Hmmmm…Actually living in this small, meaningful moment. Being here and connecting to your words!
November 12th, 2009 @ 2:27 pm
I like this “reconciling the smallness of today with the possibility that tomorrow will be great.”
Today, my family and my body are important. I am making leaps in my overall fitness, leaps that leave me sore, calloused and feeling strong, small prices to pay for growth.
My family is thriving, finally. Overall health, small roadbumps, but otherwise we are seeing progress, everywhere. After a year of illness, fighting and concessions, this is a welcome break.
November 13th, 2009 @ 4:07 pm
Budgeting my time — only 15 minutes to catch up on blogs, another 15 to dash out e-mails, 2 hours for housework, anything that doesn’t get done can wait. Focusing on my daughters’ hearts through the minute-by-minute actions that drive me craaaaazy. Letting my priorities relax so I’m not continuously disappointed in myself. Making caramel sauce and eating it with freshly-cracked walnuts.
November 14th, 2009 @ 12:09 am
My manuscript situation has begun to get quite a bit more serious too… and it has a narrative, which is interesting, an arc, a chronology, and that is both frightening and wonderful. Thinking of you and your writing. xo
November 14th, 2009 @ 2:25 am
It sounds like it’s been a wonderful week.
I have a lot in my head today. I took the last two days off from work with the intention of writing my national board entries. I have spent the entire time working on the business. I have made tons of (mostly accidental) contacts, and received gobs of support and excitement from total strangers. I had someone ask to be put on my email list. Then I decided to make an email list.
What matters to me today is the feeling I’ve had over the last few days, and realizing that this is not only the direction I want things to go, but it is entirely feasible. What matters is waking up at dawn (rather than hours before), sharing coffee with my husband, snuggling the cat or going for a run, and THEN starting my day.
Sorry… this is a long comment. You asked exactly the right question just as I was processing all of this in my brain, and prefaced it with a description of your week and feelings, which at the moment seem similar to mine.
I hope you have some really great tomorrows ahead of you.
November 14th, 2009 @ 12:39 pm
what matters to me today is getting a run in on the mountain before the first rain drops. music, matters to me every day (today’s song on repeat is this rope is long by let’s go sailing). your blog post matters to me because it was a jolt of inspiration in my morning and i thank you for that. on that note: words and photographs, photographs and words. also, a dinner ce soir with two sisters and one cousin, lots of red wine and the echos of laughter long after the night has ended.