Vanishing point

Everything couldn’t be more uncertain, more tenuous, more questionable than they are right now. T. is thinking about quitting his job. It’s been too many months of nothing. Shoestring hardly defines it any more. Is there a vanishing point? Trying to push through and get this proposal sent today. A million things converging. Exhaustion, for [...]

a different kind of validation:

“Oh,”  T. said yesterday as we were both stumbling over the HEAPS of laundry on the floor upstairs, “I guess you actually really DO a lot of laundry.” YES. Yes I do. (And it’s been a point of contention, I might add.) But this week: not so much. In fact not at all actually. And [...]

Today i need…

Today I need you to remind me that the many hours and the messy house and the hunched shoulders and the dark circles under my eyes will all be worth it. (It will, right?) Because I’m at that point with the proposal. THISCLOSE. I have a headache. It’s been raining all day. The birches look [...]

worthy vs. frivolous

I am so interested that many of you also face this tug-of-war over worthy vs. frivolous, and I am wondering where we came by such notions? What voices define these words in our heads? Parents? Teachers? Friends? Books? I’m also curious about what comes to mind specifically for you when you think of these two [...]

Out of context

It was a kind of out of body, out of context experience that put me back in touch with myself in a way I didn’t expect… starting with driving the 3 hours alone in the car, no radio, just me and my thoughts. I haven’t spent three hours alone with my thoughts in a long, [...]